today i felt the crazy kind of hunger after a long time. i was so filled with it that i took a bite the size my father would take, even with the thick ghee spread on my sister's chappati, chomped on the seeds of okra, so juicy and so thrilling and they seemed new. today water was sweet, i was thirsty and the gum i'm chewing has flavour. i can smell myself. i don't usually eat sweets, but today i slowly munched on half a laddoo. i can hear my hunger. i love eating again. Funny how yesterday it was such a deadly dusty screaming crying, perfect storms, people flinging things at me ugly day where my escapist wanted to never wake up and today I woke up untired even with a five hour sleep. Sweet. Beautiful. Hoho God/R.G. you doing a better job. Proud of you.
