When I lost the last hope which I was holding for a long time, I didn't understand what's going on in my life. I feel like I lost the game in the middle because I didn't know the gameplay. Somedays I needed a person by my side to talk about all my shitty problems. Maybe it's possible to talk about them in real. But definitely it's not in my case. The other days I thought to disconnect from everything and everyone. When I was alone, my heart was insisting me to scream until all the pain evaporates. At last, I thought the best way to calm my heart and soul is "listening to songs". In the background, my favorite song was playing. Oh crazy! This time I shut it down in the midway. My confused mind asked me one question: "What you actually need?". Ah! I can't explain. I can't explain! #bindu #B #alone #losinghope #pain #love #life