finally I understand why I always loved war movies, especially the war scenes and war music.. because in a war all there it is, is uncertainty.. you never know what's going to happen and where and when.. it's a chaos something that resembled on what I grew up, and the trauma bonding, with peeps who'd treat me pathetically.. at war, there's never a peace, and that's the reason the doctors say I have PTSD... well today I understand it.. and it's another blessing.. thanks to my friends.. for saving me today from self destructing... today I faced my biggest demon... as I came face to face with it.. not going down to it.. ever again to it... ©Akhil Kael Truth comes to those who are willing to seek... #alone